It is frigid today. I walked this morn for only a brief moment and when I got home my face was still red and cold. The wind is cutting. Zephyr forces me from his sight, admonishing me for being outside midwinter when I don’t really have to be.
My house tries to be warm. Furnace fighting valiantly in the face of frigidity. Insulation huddling together to make warm air pockets. Space heater making a small, warm glow for us to huddle about- when the dog isn’t hogging it all.
My thermals and fleece prove to be money well spent, gifts well used. Fingerless wool gloves a wondrous Yuletide gift. Even if it’s too cold to use them outside, they’re still good for typing.
Alexi Murdoch singing:
‘I’m just a spirit trying to be human…..
you don’t need strength to be strong.
Time to believe in what you know…’
I try to remember this.
Hula today to warm me up. I think of the waves on the beach, Kona, sunshine on my face as I dance. A new dance today. Coordinate hands and feet. And head. Don’t forget to breathe. This will stick if I do it a hundred more times. One of the girls will move to Florida soon, and I will miss her. I hope she is lucky in life and enjoys each moment of it.
I think of my family, the subject of much conversation lately, and can only hope they will all find their way. I worry for them, wishing I could wave my wand or make a charm and smooth the way. Make them know all they need to without experience. For all my personal growth and lessons this month, I will be glad to see it pass.
The cards warn me of more to come, and moving on after.
I have music to lead the way. Strong hands to hold on the path. The guiding light of hope. Faith that after the fear washes over and through me, only I will Remain.