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After a bit of knitting, a flick, and some cookies…

Feeling better today.  Lovely weather, sunshine and a bit of a loose plan all help with that.  Went through and double checked all my security junk after the whole crazy people thing and am feeling pretty good about it all.  I’m a bit shocked at the visceral reaction I had, just to unwanted communications.  I’m listening to it though, over the years I’ve found it’s not worth it to ignore my intuitions. 


In the parking lot at the grocery today I saw a fender bender.  A good reminder to me (and all involved) to Pay Attention.  Man A was either pulling into a spot or out of it, and Man B was backing straight out.  A honked, several times and long ones, B continued to back.  He couldn’t have been looking at all.  A’s vehicle was a minivan and it was almost perpendicular to B’s vehicle.  Nothing major- just enough for a dent and shake of the van I suspect.  Still, sometimes we miss the most obvious things because we’re just not paying enough attention.


I am often guilty of this. 


I tend to ‘brown out’ sometimes on things that don’t seem important, then later wonder why Bear/Monkey is insisting they told me something.  They did, I wasn’t paying attention- to one of the two most important people in my life.  Today I will have Open Eyes, and Attentive Mind. 




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shots across the bow, while tattooing

In the span of a day we’ve gone from 98 degrees to 63.  It’s like suddenly waking up in Fall.  I’m wearing a hoodie and the Pup is doing the “I haven’t enough fur” quiver.  I know what this means. 

Autumn just kicked Summer in the balls. 


Don’t get me wrong.  I love Autumn.  Or Fall.  Whichever.  But it doesn’t bode well for the coming temperatures.  You know what follows right on the heels of Fall?  Winter.  That’s right. 


I’m doing all I can to prolong the Summer though.  We’re heading to a local beach on Thursday and I’m going to soak up as much sun as possible.  And if I can figure how to stash some in a jar between now and then, you bet your fur I will.  Also, I’m trying to figure out how to put an expansion charm on my kitchen window, so when the sunlight hits it the whole thing expands to the size of the side of the house and lets in as much light as possible.  Not too sure how this will turn out, but if it does I’ll be sure to share.  😉



It’s Labor Day!  Woohoo! 

In honour of this holiday, Bear has had a 3 DAY WEEKEND!!!!!  This means I’ve seen him for longer than an hour at a time over the last 3 days!  He got to sleep in Saturday and Sunday in addition to putting a new tattoo on his thigh while we watched the local fireworks on tv last night.  It has been fabulous. 

I miss the days when this would’ve been a normal weekend. 

Don’t get me wrong….  I’m quite pleased to have the cashflow that a 60-odd hour work week brings.  It’s nice.  But I miss having him around more.  Our schedule is funky enough as it is with him doing 3d shift.  Add an extra 20 hours to the regular and all he does is work, eat, sleep.  It’s all he has time for. 


The Chinese has been very accommodating of our shifting schedules, and things are better since we’ve a second car again.  Means my timing doesn’t have to be quite as precise as it did when I had to have the car home in time for Bear to head to work.  (And really, I could just walk anyway.  It’s not as if I work 88 miles away or anything.)  Still. 

It’s been fab having the entire weekend with him.  I’ve felt like I could legitimately get distracted with work in the garden and not be neglecting my time with him.  Been a while for that.  Alas, this too must come to an end.  He’s to work this evening, and so is sleeping now in preparation for it.  Even though his sleep schedule was totally fucked this weekend (slept at NIGHT, he did!  Weird, I know) he shouldn’t have any problem getting back into the rhythm of his regular schedule.  His body was still insisting that 2 in the afternoon was tiresomely late and he should be in bed yesterday.  That was after 9ish hours of sleep the night before.  🙂  I know at some point the insanity will stop and he’ll go back to a normal 40 hour week, but it would really help to know it’ll be sooner rather than later. 

Ah, well.  Gift horses and all that, right? 

Hope everyone has had an equally excellent weekend and that it translates into a marvelous week.  Cheers!


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let your heart be light

It’s Valentine’s day, a season (since it starts around New Year’s now) when hearts and pink and red become unavoidable.  Men are told diamonds and roses are necessary for peace in the home, and women feel (vaguely) obligated to wear the sexy undies on their dates that night.  But really, what should V-day be about?  Well, there’s a whole passel of places to find out the origins of St. Valentine’s day so I’m not even going to bother with that.  What I’m aiming at is: what do you WANT it to be about?

If it’s purely a romantic thing, all flowers and cuddles and sexiness- go for it.

If you feel obligated to get a card to recognize a day pre written on the calendar, (you shouldn’t) I reckon that’s ok too.  As long as you don’t go all guilt stricken when the card shows up late (usually what happens to my obligation gifts- they land in limbo for a week or so before finding their way to the intended persons).


What if we collectively decide to open the possibilities up?  What is good for our hearts?  Not in the eatrightexercise way, so much as what makes your heart light.  I mean, don’t get me wrong…. food makes my heart happy.  Especially when it’s prepared with love and I enjoy it with people I love.  Exercise too, makes my heart happy- I’m so much less stressed after a nice long Hula class.  Mostly because I have to change my focus from all things everywhere to what my physical body is doing AT THIS MOMENT.  Coordinate.  Hands, hips, feet.  (It takes a lot of focus.)

In the spirit of that, here’s a list of a few things that make my heart happy, fill me with love, and generally lighten my soul:

:: Laughter.  I go through periods when it seems I’m laughing all the time and it’s wonderful.  It makes me happy, cheerful with others and more patient with people I would otherwise threaten with sudden destruction.  I’m going to try to extend those amusing periods.

:: Bear.  He makes me feel all soft and mushy inside, pulls me up when I’m down, makes me laugh, lets me vent, and occasionally brings me strawberries.  He has shown me a world I would never have known without him.  He’s so good for my heart.

:: Monkey.  When I’m having one of those omgimabadparentcausethelaundryisallstackedandidon’teverdoanythingaroundthehouseandi’msuppos

edtoTEACHthiskidsomething days inevitably he tells me how much he loves me and that he’s glad I’m his mom.  Without prompting.  🙂  How can that not make you feel better.  It’s like the magic kiss on the boo-boo.

:: Kindness.  You know how when, on the spur of the moment, you do something really kind for someone with no thought or intent behind it other than to help and you get that really light, cheerful feeling after?  I love that.  Or when strangers start being nice, holding doors for you and offering to help you with whatever, and everyone’s all “thank you” “you’re welcome” and you feel friendly?  Yeah.  That’s it.

:: Framily.  These are the people who, though not actually related to me, I have adopted and come to consider my own.  I love them all dearly (though I don’t tell them often).  I call them when I’m up, down, or sideways and they call me, too.  We break bread, drink coffee and wine, laugh, mock, sing, dance, dress up, spend holidays, bitch, and maybe even cry together.  They are my support system, they too, are good for my heart.

There’s more, I know, but I’d be here all day and you get the idea.  At any rate, the point is- don’t let others define how you celebrate and view the world.  You have your own lenses and they see differently than any others.  Have a fabulous Monday.  Do something kind for yourself or someone else.  Laugh.  Tell the people you love that you love them.  Then do it again tomorrow and the day after.